Mood: i wish i could just fly to the sun on my rocket ship and burn on the way ...
Current Song: Damaged People - depeche mode
I am sorry for everything ive put you through. You tell me that i'm amazing, and that you dont deserve me. Yet you dont see everything that i am ... i love you i do i honestly love you :3 forever that will remain. but ... blankie .. i also have feelings for summs ... Do you ever wonder why i push you away at random times and dont let you hug me? Its when we're around summs. I hate making him feel bad. He probably doesnt even have any feelings for me which would be GREAT. but that is the reason. ill hug you anytiem anyplace if summs isnt around at all. if summs is around though .. i will constantly push you away while pulling you back to stay ... conflicting emotions rage inside of me and i cant seem to stay sane for long. im going to lose it and when i do i want to know who'll catch me when i fall. I LOVE YOU BLANKIE. i have small feelings for summs they dont compare to how i feel for you ... but they are there. :) dont worry blankie ill never leave you. EVER. but ... i wont be there 100% .. since 7% of me wants summs ... so you can have all 93% of me ... im sorry thats all i can offer at the moment. you dont know how this rips me apart on the inside. i dont think your mind could wrap itself aroundthe kidn of TURMOIL this had inflicted on me. You always say you dont wanna hurt me which is so kind. but blankie i hate to tell you the truth, but you and summs are the main people that do hurt me and i dont know how i can save myself from you when all i really want .... is you
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