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| And yet they dont see what they are doing to me .... |
Mood: Bummed Out
Current Song: Broken Man - Boys like Girls
I made a shocking discovery today. One that changes alot of things for me ...
I walked outside trying to focus on hugging blankie (i hadnt seen him all day :( ) I was braced i saw blankie he was in clear view i could run into his arms and everything would be magnificent id thought about it all afternoon it was gonna be magical ... but then i saw summs right acrose from him in his own click own group of friends and i couldnt decide who to hug first .. summs or blankie ... and the only reason this troubles me is because now i see. i will ALWAYS choose summs over blankie ... always. and i still love blankie i love blankie and will stay with blankie for forever ... but summs is my best friend and i will always choose him ... and this wouldnt be bad if i didnt love summs too ... i love summs .... but i love blankie more and i chose summs over blankie and its killing me inside ... i cant deal with this i just .. i cant believe that i chose summs ...
I will choose blankie first for everything .. but if summs needs me i will choose him ... and it just kills my heart to know that blankie would choose me first but i dont return the favor .. id choose summs im torn to be right where blankie is and to be summs friend as well :(
Sad thing is they both dont know what theyre doing to me :(
They still think im a happy go lucky person and i am .. when they arent in the same room together :( or in close proximity ...
because sadly .. id choose summs ....
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